Redefining Me

Who I am and who I was is not the same as who I am becoming. Because who I am is losing who I was, while still searching for who I will be. And who I will be is plain and simply, just me. And me is a woman living a healthy lifestyle. Me is a woman who runs marathons just because. Me is a woman strong, confident and proud. Me is a woman who loves the skin she's in. Me is a woman not afraid to fall but not willing to give up. Me is the woman God intended me to be. Me is a woman who loves with all she has. Me is a woman secure in the promises of God. Me is a woman who was lost but is being found now.

Sixty pounds ago I ate my feelings...I sat on my behind all day...I watched as the world passed me by...I hated myself and who I'd become...I wanted to give up and thought nothing would change...I got winded walking up one flight of stairs...I felt ugly...I fat unlovable...I wanted a way out...I could out eat anyone, anywhere...I was as big as my dad...I was very unhealthy. But, now...oh now...I find another outlet for my emotions...I get up and go to the gym...I am grabbing the world by its horns...I am learning to love myself...I want to keep going because everything’s changed...I can leap up a flight of stairs...I feel beautiful...I feel loved...I found a new opportunity...I am as small as my mom...I am healthy!